Coop is at his friend Landon's for a sleepover tonight. He left around 3pm and will be home tomorrow around 9am. So I had the whole night to myself. Did I go drinking? No! Did I go out dancing? No! Did I have a date? No! Am I pathetic - yes!
I have known about this night out for a few weeks now. I didn't want to plan a night in the city because I was a little worried about being away from home if Coop wanted to come home or something happened. Unfortunately, I don't really have any girlfriends here yet that I could go out with around home (other than Shannon who is the lucky keeper of the Coop tonight with her son Landon and family!) So I decided to take some "me" time and get a pedicure, go shopping and catch a chick flick. By myself :(
One of the hardest aspects of being a single mom is the irony of the fact that you are never alone but always lonely. I miss having a social life and to be honest, having friends. I miss being able to go out and meet new people without having to explain that I'm a mom and can't go out more than once a year! I miss being "me".
Don't get me wrong, I love this new me. I didn't know who I was until I became a mother!! And I love being Cooper's mom! He is my whole world. Just sometimes, on nights like tonight, even that can be a little lonely.
So, on my one night a year (or two) that I don't have Coop I am sitting here by myself, feeling quite sorry for myself to be honest.
I have known about this night out for a few weeks now. I didn't want to plan a night in the city because I was a little worried about being away from home if Coop wanted to come home or something happened. Unfortunately, I don't really have any girlfriends here yet that I could go out with around home (other than Shannon who is the lucky keeper of the Coop tonight with her son Landon and family!) So I decided to take some "me" time and get a pedicure, go shopping and catch a chick flick. By myself :(
One of the hardest aspects of being a single mom is the irony of the fact that you are never alone but always lonely. I miss having a social life and to be honest, having friends. I miss being able to go out and meet new people without having to explain that I'm a mom and can't go out more than once a year! I miss being "me".
Don't get me wrong, I love this new me. I didn't know who I was until I became a mother!! And I love being Cooper's mom! He is my whole world. Just sometimes, on nights like tonight, even that can be a little lonely.
So, on my one night a year (or two) that I don't have Coop I am sitting here by myself, feeling quite sorry for myself to be honest.
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